Why Me? Why Not?!

I have lots of questions and not a lot of answers, but I feel better today.  I'm singing my favorite song a lot - "Count it all Joy" by Tarralyn Ramsey.

when your going through,
and you don’t know what to do,
when the fire gets to high don’t draw nigh,
hold your head up high and be of good cheer,
all you need to know,
your deliverance is here

i know you sit and ask yourself so many times,
why does it seem like i am losing my mind,
as i sit and reminisce on all that I’ve been through,
i'm realizing it’s not about me but about you

count it all joy

If this is the road God intends for me to travel, then I know I can do this.  I know God won't put more on me than I can bear.  I had to two more tests yesterday, Chest X-ray and Bone CT and the results came through with excellent news - NO SIGNS OF CANCER in my lungs or in my bones.  I'm counting it all joy!